Sunday, August 3, 2014

An Orphan Kid

Hello hello. Since I'm sharing my thoughts and feelings a lot lately, I decided to post something a bit different. I have lots of stories about great people in my life. People that inspired me and motivated me to never give up and to work as hard as I can to get the things I want . They believed in me and encouraged me to be a better person than I used to be. They've witnessed my failures, my disappointments and myself destruction.  I guess telling a story that inspired me is going to help me focus on the bright side of my life. Reminding myself of some of the good people that I met and to take a moment to appreciate them is pretty much useful.
A while ago, I had a breakdown and I decided to drop college to work my ass off and to get money for a better one. I thought I was wasting my time on basically nothing. In fact, I believed that but I didn’t have the courage to actually do it. I wasn't paying attention to the things around me, I was a wreck and pretty much lost in my own thoughts. I couldn't figure what's good for me to begin with and how to fix my mistakes without risking too much.
One day, I finished my classes and I met this man, he asked me if there's something wrong with me and I started to talk and complain about everything I had in my mind. He is one of the most incredible men I've ever met in my life and he decided to tell me a story about his life when he was younger than me. His story really changed my perspectives and he gave me a better look to the world.
He told me about his education story, I know it sounds boring or serious but honestly I could do anything to hear that story again, it literally affected me. I don't know where to begin but let me start from the first thing I remember. He told me that he used to be a great student back in the 60's. he was excellent and he really loved school despite all the difficulties he had back then and prevented him to do his best. When he was 12 he lost his father and that was hard enough for him to do better. He had to take care of his mother and his little sisters.
He was the man of the house after his father, he did everything he could to make his family happy. He had to make sacrifices for them and he never hesitated to do what best for them. He told me how difficult it was to be a 12 years old and to have big responsibilities on his shoulders. He had to work at night to make money for his family and he had to go to school every day. He said " I never missed a day, I had big plans for my future and I believed I could do more for my family". After a while, his mother got sick and he needed to work harder to pay for her medicines. He had to drop school for some days to work at  a workshop at night and he also worked at a grocery store. He said, " I used to study for school and work at the same time, it wasn't hard for me because I used to enjoy it"
 A couple of years later, his sisters got married and he was alone with his mother. He took care of her besides his job and school. He told me that he never complained about it and he was terrified of the idea of losing her to death. He used to tell her about his day and how delightful it was although he started to suffer between his 2 jobs and school. He couldn't bare the idea of losing his mother, she was everything he had. He had to drop school and to find a job that could pay him well to take a good care of her. She never knew about that and he had to lie to her just to cheer her up. One day, one of his teachers called the house to ask about him and that day was the day his mother found out about the mistake he made. She asked him to go back and to never care about anything else other than his school. He refused that and he begged her to never ask that again.
Months later, he had to travel to a different town to work there for 2 days. He asked one of his sisters to take care of his mother while he's gone. It only took him 2 days, but those were the last time he ever heard from his mother.
He was 18 when he lost her and that was the only thing he kept fighting for to never lose. He was young and fragile, he couldn't bare the pain and he didn't leave his house for 2 weeks. When he finally realized the ugly truth, he decided to go back to school but they never took him in again. They told him he missed his chance and then he had to go back to his formal job because that’s what left for him.     
He told me if he tried harder, he could've completed his education and he could've had better chances for his kids and wife. His family means the world to him and he's willing to do anything for his kids to study at the best schools and universities. He told me he would love for them to be the best of the best. To have better lives than he had but he doesn't want to push them so hard and he wants them to pick the major they prefer. Even if he wants a better one for them, he won't push them at all. All what he wants for them is to follow their dreams and never ever give up. He said life wasn't easy on him and he's doing everything in his power to make it a bit easy on them, they are everything he has in this world.
He told me giving up is so easy and he had lots of difficult choices to make. He never gave up and he was hard to take down. He was strong enough for his mother and he never thought he would ever going to lose her, and when she died he gave up on life for a whole 2 weeks. He regret not trying harder to get back to school because he thinks that cost him his children happiness for not being the father they wanted him to be. A successful man and a great father that would give them anything they desire without blinking twice. He feels sorry and he's doing his best for his children to not let them make the same mistake he did a long time ago.
He took a moment looking at me about to cry, and he said " you must think less of me now, I know how hard it is to open up to you since you have your own problems to deal with. Let me make it clear to you in other words, it's easy to drop college and to find a job that will pay you good but never good enough. It's easy to let your parents take care of you but they won't last forever. It's not only about college or about how many mistakes you've made. It's all about you and how much are you willing to go or to do to achieve what you want. I live my life regretting one choice I didn't make right and I know you enough to say you hate giving up and I assure you, you're  not willing to regret a choice you've made out of childish thinking. Life is never easy and this is only the beginning of what coming next, if you stopped believing in yourself you won't be able to live a healthy life full of achievements. Stop making people decide for you whether you can or you can't. stop letting them break you down with so many failures. Never regret failing it's nothing but a way to reach what you want and remember success worth it all."

I may never see this guy again and I may never be able to thank him for sharing his story with me. But I believe he opened up for me because he knew how that would help me to make a good decision about my future life. He inspired me and motivated me to do more than giving up and he opened my eyes on so many things I never saw before. He taught me that life is full of obstacles and there's no shame about failure.

I wish him nothing but all the best in life and I wish for his children to make him proud. He's honestly one of the most great fathers.




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